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[31 Jan 2005|02:11am] |
Rejection.
We all know what it means; the dictionary meaning, that is. But, for the first time, I’ve felt in reality what rejection is. Like barbwire that cuts, intricately with its cultured blades, through the depths of my heart; my love, like everything else I once held dear, is simply a crumbled mass of extinctive alternatives. People ask me why I fear rejection when I’ve never feared rejection. I can never really explain it. Even now, when I want to cry and all that answers is tortured anger and scathing fingernails, I can’t explain it. But this is why; this rejection. It’s my worst nightmare, and fuck, it hurts.
( i didnt write this )
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[08 Dec 2004|04:47am] |
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omg you wont believe it im so bored ive actually decided to study for my learners but since im a procrastinator (sp?) i had to write in this thing first.. maybe my mom will finally trust me enough to take me and get my learners
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[08 Dec 2004|01:53am] |
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i got invited to go to some concert last weekend with megan and brandy i didnt go. they went to a concert that had my chemical romance, breaking benjamin, good charlotte and a bunch of other bands they got like { } this close to touching benji. ( for those of u who dont know i have an obsession with benji i think he is wayy sexxy) i was so pissed that i didnt go megan told me i should come and that theyre would be good bands but i thouhgt she was talking about local bands cuz her and brandy always go to local bands and i asked her what bands but she went away and i just signed offline. damn im stupid
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[08 Dec 2004|12:14am] |
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everyone thinks im a drug dealer now i had 2 people IM me today and ask me if i could get them stuff. and then tara told me that jerry came up to her today and asked her what happened to me b/c garretson (the skool cop) told him to call me b/c h thought we were still going out and tara told him what happened and he said "woah..... right" whatever the hell thats supposed to mean .. i have a job interview at subway at 1 and then at 4 i have to go meet a parole officer. yippy well i dont have time to write much im kinda busy so ill update more later
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[24 Nov 2004|01:00am] |
comment to be added ill most likely add you back
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